move on, sweet love

sweet
innocent love
innocent dreams
beautiful
colorful
you make my life
so much brighter
when you are not with me
my bones ache for you
my love for you
radiates through my entire being

everyday i wish
that you felt
one ounce of love for me
but you never will
because i will always be your second

move on, sweet love
you have been nothing but cruel
i'll never bee good enough for you

[she said she won the world, at a carnival. but she could never win me.]

dear sunshine,

you're so disappointing
i thought maybe this time
would be different
that you would fight for me
that you would tell me
i'm making a huge mistake.

i said i would always be there
always be your joy
and when i look in the mirror
i'm reminded how much i loved you

sometimes i wonder
if the other boys wonder
what the tattoo means
if they asked,
i would just say
it's the mark of failure
the mark of a failed love
they'll just shrug
and move along
they'll be gone in a week anyway.

i don't regret it
you that is
i don't regret loving you
i don't regret trying so hard
i don't regret remembering
everyday it gets a little easier to move on
but i always want to keep your memory close

this makes no sense
i'm so confused
i have no idea
why i'm writing this
it won't change a fucking thing.

My Sunshine

you are my sunshine
my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are gray
you do not know dear
how much i love you
please don't take my sunshine away

you are my sunshine
but you left
you left to follow your dreams
you left me here in gray skies

i'm sorry
i didn't mean to let you go
i really can't live without you
because you really are
my only sunshine

i pretended i didn't need you
i thought i didn't
but i catch myself
talking aloud
pretending it's you

and i want to do is fly to london , tell you I'm sorry tell you that I fucked up, that all i have ever wanted is you. I can't stop thinking about you. Every man i pretend is you, Everyday i stare at my phone hoping you'll call but you won't.

so i'll get a tattoo
of a sun
to pretend you will always be with me
even when you aren't.

because right now I'm living in this fantasy
in my mind
we'll get back together
you'll love me again
we'll be happy
just like i planned

but that's so fucked up
because you aren't coming back
but you will forever be
my sunshine

Invisible

Have you ever felt
invisible
like everything you do
goes completely unseen

like when you look at him
and he sees you
but doesn't seem to care
like he wishes you were just
invisible

Only when he doesn't want to sleep with you
when he does
oh baby
he sees you

but then you go back to being
invisible
waiting to be seen
waiting to be cared about
but that will never happen
because you will always be
invisible

Crazy
Ridiculous
Stupid
These are all words that come out
when i think about you.

I have no desire to be in love
no desire to wake up to you
no desire to be anywhere near you.

but i love you
i want to wake up to you
every bone in my body
aches to be near you
call me crazy

you don't feel the same way
not even close
but i can't help but fall
head over heels for you
call me crazy

crazy
ridiculous
stupid
but i can't help it
you are amazing
and i love loving you
call me crazy

Wasteland

I am a whore
you are a fool
we are all nothing more than
fools and whores

We can barely see the sun
through this wasteland
of used condoms
of broken hearts
of drug needles
of burnt out joints
of empty liquor bottles
of everything we need
of everything we crave

fools
whores
sad hearts
nothing more
nothing extraordinary
nothing worthwhile

but we are all content
with our wasteland
with our stupidity
with our emotionless existence
we crave nothing more

So sleep with one more guy
smoke one more joint
finish that bottle
justify it in your mind


everyone else is doing it.

Anywhere you are

Put me on a plane
fly me to anywhere
anywhere you are

I know i make mistakes
i know i don't deserve you
i don't deserve your trust
i don't deserve your love
but after all this time
after all the fights
after all te heartbreak
you are still here
i'm still here
and i don't know why.

So i hop on a plane
to where you are
because every part of me
yearns to be with you
that's why i don't give up
that's why i keep fighting

Put me on a plane
to anywhere
anywhere you are.