Silence

the silence is killing me
someone bang on some pans
break something
anything
just make noise
i can't stand this silence

because the silence makes me think
think about the world
think about my life
i want to be desensitized
like the rest of the world
I don’t want to care

busy
busy
busy
don’t stop and think
don’t pay attention to the silence
just keep going
please
make some noise
and drown out the silence

Smile

hey, you there
smile like you mean it
because despite the fact
you are alone
you work a deadend job
you are flunking out of school
you still have something to live for
you can live for the fact
you know who you are
you have a job
you have the desire to become better.

It's hard out there
facing the world alone
but everyday
you become a little better at it
one day
you'll find someone to face it with you
you'll have your dream job
you'll be done with school.
when that day comes
you'll smile
and think about the day
you only hoped your dreams would come true

Misfortune

this is for the hypocrisy in America
misfortune isn't breaking a nail
or not having a boyfriend
or even having a hard time paying your bills

its not having enough food
its not knowing if you are going to live tomorrow
its having your son taken away from you
to fight a war you don't agree on
to be one of many wives
to watch your children die
that's misfortune

but we don't know about that,
because we are to busy watching american idol
we are to busy smoking weed
we are in our western world box
that we can't see out of

i'm not saying give up your life
just appreicate it.

Insanity

Do you know what insanity is?
I'll tell you

Insanity is this idea
that the poor are going to get richer
and the rich will get poorer
that our problems can be fixed by one man
that all we have to do is complain
get your lazy ass of the couch
and do something
anything
don't blame Obama or Bush for our problems
the problems started with us
leaving other people
to do our dirty work
our problems aren't because of the government
its because of the control we let our government have
Our problems aren't going to end with Obama
Our problems will end
when the insanity ends
and we learn to spend our money
to save our money
to not let society run us
make your own decisions
do something
think for yourself.

Memory

Here is my favorite memory:

Remember when I first told you that I wanted to be with you, and that I wanted to be with you since the day I saw you. But I thought you didn't care for me so I just pretended that everything was normal and then one day I just couldn't take it anymore and just told you, "hey I like you a lot, just thought you should know." And we ended up falling in love. Remember that?

Oh yeah,
you don't
because this never happened
because I'm to scared
to tell you how I really feel
god, i wish you could figure it out
because it's so hard
to be just friends
because you are so awesome
and wonderful
and we are perfect together
open your eyes
see what we could be?
what memories we could have?

breathe again

Inhale, Exhale, Inhale, Exhale
think
just breathe
everything will be alright
don't pay attention to the things
going on around you
just focus on breathing

I can't believe, he would do that, just leave. Without a reason or explanation. He just said "I'm going my own way." Follow him. No, He wants to do it by himself. Years of devotion, fuck that. Time obviously meas nothing at all. He says "I will always love you." bullshit. then don't leave. He has too. He needs to. So he does and you are stuck here, all by yourself.

Inhale, Exhale, Inhale, Exhale
breathe again
it will all be over soon
forget
just forget about the world
don't think
just breathe
everything will be fine.

Drive

Drive faster
faster
faster
don't slow down
don't stop
don't look back
just drive faster


Then maybe forget,
everything behind you
you can forget about him
you can go to some different place
and pretend he never existed
you don't have to live your mistakes
the reasons why he left you.
you deserved it
you really did
and now you are paying for you mistakes


turn the stereo up
[It's to a girl who got into my head, With all the fucked up things I did]
drown out the world
you've changed
you won't make the same mistakes twice
[hopefully]
forget about the past
live for today
and Drive

Innocence

why do we put so much emphasis on being innocent? It shouldn't be about if we are pure enough, it should about who we are, what we stand for. Who gives a fuck if we had sex our not. If we haven't, big deal, if we have, who gives a fuck? why do we follow stupid religious standards? that's stupid and unintelligent. sex should be about love in the first place, it should be roses and candles anyway. be in love, have sex, enjoy it, don't feel guilty. Be happy, live your life to the fullest.

heaven

I heard once in a song heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch him and you feel alive. and that's the way I feel about you
when we touch I feel like that's where I am supposed to be. I'm not sure heaven exists, this perfect place where no one dies and no one feels pain, but even if we don't go anywhere when we die I'll be fine because I had you, maybe just one moment, but isn't that the same idea? Because in that one moment no one dies, no one feels pain, we are just sitting here watching the sunrise, bodies intertwined, yes the streets may not be paved with gold but I don't need that. I don't need a savior i just want this moment to last forever. love is real, just as real as pain. love is the heaven of emotions pain is the hell. So take me to the place, where it's just me and you. because I love you.