move on, sweet love

sweet
innocent love
innocent dreams
beautiful
colorful
you make my life
so much brighter
when you are not with me
my bones ache for you
my love for you
radiates through my entire being

everyday i wish
that you felt
one ounce of love for me
but you never will
because i will always be your second

move on, sweet love
you have been nothing but cruel
i'll never bee good enough for you

[she said she won the world, at a carnival. but she could never win me.]

dear sunshine,

you're so disappointing
i thought maybe this time
would be different
that you would fight for me
that you would tell me
i'm making a huge mistake.

i said i would always be there
always be your joy
and when i look in the mirror
i'm reminded how much i loved you

sometimes i wonder
if the other boys wonder
what the tattoo means
if they asked,
i would just say
it's the mark of failure
the mark of a failed love
they'll just shrug
and move along
they'll be gone in a week anyway.

i don't regret it
you that is
i don't regret loving you
i don't regret trying so hard
i don't regret remembering
everyday it gets a little easier to move on
but i always want to keep your memory close

this makes no sense
i'm so confused
i have no idea
why i'm writing this
it won't change a fucking thing.