Scared

I'm scared
that I won't ever love again
that I made the wrong decision to leave
that loving you was what I was born to do
that when I leave you'll forget
that you'll pretend I never existed
that you'll move on
that you'll have the life I always dreamed about
that you'll be happy and I won't be
that I am not skinny enough
that I am not pretty enough
that I am inadequate
I'm scared that I'm not good enough.

So play on my insecurities
tell me that I am beautiful
tell me that you love me
tell me that you miss me
tell me you want me back
tell me that you want to hold me
tell me there is no one else
tell me no one is more important then me.

Then you'll get what you want
then you'll use me
then you'll lose me
then you'll pretend nothing ever happened
that I am just a footnote in a chapter of many women.