Blood

Red
Thick
Sticky
Painful
Hurt
Control
Blood
Release

That's why it happens
I need control
I desire for it
So I take the blade
and with one swift movement

thick
painful
red
sticky
hurt
control
release

dripping from my arm
i need to feel this release

you judge me
you tell me it's wrong
that I need help
but I don't believe I do
it's harmless
and if you left me alone
I ouldn't feel this overwelming guilt
that I just disappointed everyone
but you can fuck off
because you don't know
what i'm going through

So I'll continue
blade in hand
breath swift
red
sticky
painful
hurt
control
a final release.