birthday boys

You don't seem innocent to me
even though you are
your kisses are sweet
i want so much more
but i can't have it
you are such a tease
i get a little taste
'because it's my birthday'
god i love birthdays

its my birthday
he wants me
i already tasted the boy i want
but the lines are starting to blur
time for a boy
that wants me back
hours pass
i wake up
cuddling
with the boy
i used to love
god i love birthdays

now its back to the ordinary
back to being alone
back to wanting
back to the memories
of my birthday boys

My Own Happy Ending

I wish I could read you
like I read my books
understand exactly what lies
between the lines.

i wish i could understand you
like i understand music
it's the gateway to my soul
always knowing the words i need to hear

I wish we could play out like a movie
predictable
and happy endings
easy to deal with
we could always rewrite the ending


But for some crazy reason
you aren't like a book
you don't know me like my music
and we aren't predictable
but it's still beautiful
the way i look into your eyes
and know what you are thinking
and when you say the words
i love you
that's exactly what I need to hear.
and when you hold me
you feel like my happy ending

that's me

the girl that wants
the girl thats needs
that's me
the girl that can't help
falling for the bad boys
that's me
the girl that strives to be better
but always fails
that's me
the girl that trys to hard
to be something else
that's me
the girl who wishes at 11:11
then crys herself to sleep
that's me
someday things will get better
until then
all i can be is
me